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Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
11:00 pm	i think i'm going crazy...i've finally come to the conclusion that my family is....eh....i'm on the road and things have never felt so good. i guess it is the simple things which affect one's esteem... people need to be cared for; we shouldn't fear love...loathesome...pity; all their stupid smiling faces could never have been real...all the faces i have worn, none of them would ever know...i wish i could keep in touch, eh....things are blissfully different in so many ways...some basic things will always remain the same...i've taken a different face these past couple years...i no longer have to be...send in the clowns...sometimes i do get angry; i guess everyone feels like almost everyone doesn't care... i sliced my finger at work and have five stitches in my pinky finger...it's sore (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 28th, 2005
7:36 pm	yum yum yum yum....i am writing a paper for geology...ewww...it's almost done....goood... I only have thirty credit hours left and I'll be done with my Bachelor's. It's so bizarre; I remember when I was terrified of school. I've been proposed to; so bizarre, but I love my Roobie...It really doesn't seem like that long...I need to go put in my app's for my nursing thing (I got certified between the end of last semester and the beginning of summer session I.)...I need tags but automobiles are so expensive...i should be rich already...ewww...16 credit hours is a lot for one summer but I will be finished with them next week...goood...which means i can relax for two weeks before fall semester begins...HAPPY BIRTHDAY GREG!!!...can't wait until your home so i can suffocate you in my chocolate love...yum...3 musketeers bars ARE part of a lowfat diet...now that they have 45% less fat...i'm hungry...looks like we'll be eating subway again...fresh. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 29th, 2004
2:34 pm	the past year has been a time of reclusive growth for myself; a much needed break from the bad patterns i had formed and the substance dependancy i willingly allowed myself to fall victim to. it was an enormous problem, which was all my own. i had supportive people in my life who were continually being negatively affected by my issues. i can know acknowledge my faults and attempt to work towards bettering myself as a person. being comfortable in your own skin is a long journey, which, for myself, has only begun. i know my actions may seem erratic or my decisions may come off as if i am a loose cannon, but, make of them what you will. my intentions are never to hurt anyone, but when people get too close, i run. i apologize for anyone who has been hurt by my tendency to disappear; but, at the time, it seems the only way to clear my head. stability has been key in amending my bad behaviors. i feel a little older, a little wiser and more focused on what i need to do in order to obtain my goals in life. i find it easier to move on from things, stop burning bridges and realize the important things in life. i don't know, things change, people change, it's all a part of life. nothing excuses some of the hurt i've caused, but, i'm not perfect and everyday is a new day. slowly, i am letting go and am looking forward to each new experience life holds for me...i suppose this sounds a little corny, and perhaps it is, but, it's where i am right now, all in my head. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
3:22 am	...the patterns of ordinary life are fun...things are where they need to be but i can't help but thinking a small slice of life has gotten the better of me...i miss my boys... Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: jackson5-the wall (oh yeah) (Comment on this)
Monday, July 12th, 2004
7:51 am	...when the melancholy fog settles, the dreary dew of solitude sets in... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 11th, 2004
8:50 am	...wonderful new resurgence of creativity...more comfortable in skin than ever before; surrounded by people who are articulate, artistic and, most importantly, realistic...my hair is short and i love it...i look like an asian emo, who couldn't ask for more? (Comment on this)
6:52 am	CONGRADULATIONS TO MY BABY!!!!! "momma cass always said he'd be a big, big star!" i wish i could be with you to celebrate this wonderful time in your life. you are my shining star. i knew your overhelming talent and hard work would pay off.... i'm addicted to your legs...:) (Comment on this)
Friday, June 4th, 2004
7:27 pm	fcuk ...everyone offers their two bits of uninvited advice. i'm obviously not a child and the transition into adulthood would perhaps be smoother if those who supposedly cared the most weren't so quick to forget... hell, attachment is overrated; we begin and end this journey alone and the in between is filled with genuine-free sentiments, heartbreak and failure... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 4th, 2004
1:44 pm	...new job starts this weekend...last pay check from old job get this weekend...exxxcitement.... (Comment on this)
Monday, May 3rd, 2004
3:19 pm	...I believe the entire concept/practice of finals is ridiculous...at least working hard the entire semester and doing relatively well on the final exams will ensure at least a B+...wish me luck!... (Comment on this)
Friday, April 23rd, 2004
7:44 am	...coffee stained kisses break one night stands... life just keeps moving and i'm finally starting to enjoy the ride... success gets me off...what can i say?...ciggarettes are my lover; both comfort me and are harmful...j-u-s-t like y-o-u. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
5:33 am	...sometimes i just want my experiences to be my own; lacking the fear they will be taken away, magically transformed into the memory of another...today, i live in my head, which seems the best place to be...i dream, i feel, i love and am loved and the most beautiful extravagant, delicate thoughts and passions are at my fingertips...could this be? a pessimistic idealist?...in my dreams, all is tangible...i live in my head, the best place to be... (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 26th, 2004
11:04 pm	...tit bongo monkey side-show....dance on my penis extension....ruuufff, ski down the slopes of anal retentive high heeled mudsslides....two dollars to prostitute your mind in high hopes of social superiority...but beauty is fleeting..like the foggy ideals that you once held so high on love and life and things to be and things already gone by... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
4:31 pm	...wHaT a DOusHebAg.... ... BUSH TROUBLED BY S.F. GAY MARRIAGE In response to a question during a White House appearance about the issuance of marriage licenses to gay couples in the city, Bush said, “I have watched carefully what’s happening in San Francisco, where licenses were being issued, even though the law states otherwise. I have consistently stated that I’ll support law to protect marriage between a man and a woman. Obviously these events are influencing my decision.” "I strongly believe marriage should be defined as between a man and a woman,” Bush said during an Oval Office session with Tunisian President Zine El Abidine Ben Ali. “I am troubled by activist judges who are defining marriage.” ...yes, please continue to run our country you uneducated, illiterate, cokehead Republican hypocrasy....VOTE KERRY... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 15th, 2004
8:16 pm	...it's so strange, the little things you can always remember and you can't quite figure out why...kindergarten picture with the red and white striped shirt... life is so fickle that it can be perfect one instant and gone in the next... such a positive spirit with so much potential, intelligence and genuine kindness...your laughter and smile, as well as your tireless efforts to get even the slightest chuckle out of people...you just wanted to make them happy...things just don't make any sense anymore... (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 8th, 2004
2:18 am	...tHe sTupiD thNgs.. ...to taste the air as it smelled that day. to burn you in and let me free. tuck you away in the corner of imagination and bittersweet melodrama...intertwined with the beauty and the irony and the dirt beneath my fingernails...too hard to scrub away too inviting to let go...and all the stupid things i do have absolutely no reflection on how i feel about you... (Comment on this)
Monday, January 19th, 2004
12:08 am	...who wants to be practical anyway?...decisions, decisions. why not apply to transfer and live with people i adore... paris flight is now departing....hmmm... (Comment on this)
Friday, January 16th, 2004
2:24 am	...i am a neurotic insomniac head case; only meaning that i can not seem to sleep at all and i have no idea why...not to be confused with the frigid bitter headcase... (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 11th, 2004
10:44 pm	..tIcK...TiCk...tOcK... ...had quite an eventful weekend. topped off by the fashion mafia party in the nasty natti...good times...although, i'm such a douchebag that i fell down the basement stairs completely sober....hehehe, i make me laugh...tomorrow classes begin again and it is time to get back to the grind.. everyone is far away again, back to the mundane repetition of school...this is always the most difficult transition for me to make...it takes quite some time to develop a strong foundation of friends who you know and love and they know and love you and everything is just comfortable...and then they leave and here i am...and here i will be...alright... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
9:24 pm	...nEw dAyS... ...things just keep getting better...i have learned that i did, in fact, get straight 'A's last semester. i am quite pleased with myself and find that i have a renewed passion for education, setting personal goals and acheiving them... this christmas break has been magnificent! old and new friends reunited for a fun filled month of laughs, late night convo's and lots of love...i've never really been religious but i feel so blessed...my journal also is a renewed place of sanctified release where my innermost thoughts can live, free of bother and lurking judgements...i'm just comfortable... and i'm lovin it... Current Mood: happy Current Music: *rufus wainwright-hallelujah* (7 Comments |Comment on this)